Wait...Hold up. WHAT?!

Okay
So today has reached its maximum suckage level
The New Frontiers are breaking up

This is the lamest thing ever
If you dont know
The New Frontiers have been my favorite band for the last few years
I saw them perform with The Afters a few years back
And i fell in love with them
I have been one of the biggest fans since
And this news saddens me
WTF
I dont even know what to say..
Ive been to every show they have played in Dallas
Except for the 2 that were 21+ shows
But i loveeeeeeee this band

Chrissy and i went all the way to Arkansas just to see them
And when we got their the show was canceled
So i was soooooooooo looking forward to seeing them here in Dallas
But this will be the last time
And that just sucks major balls...

Their music is just so uplifting, inspirational, and just so amazing
I cant even describe it...
This band meant so much to me that i got their lyrics tattooed on my wrists
And it just sucks that they are breaking up so soon
They have so much potential to become something bigger and even better

But shit happens..
Their music helped me out through the hard times
When friends just werent enough
It helped me with all the deaths that i had to deal with in the last year and a half
Especially Joeys

I just dont know what to say cause i am so sad to hear this news

I guess
Good luck to the fellas in the band
I know they will all go far in life
They are all talented musicians and it just makes me terribly sad to hear that they are breaking up

Im just too sad to even say anything anymore

One of the best bands ever..
Such sad news
Makes me want to cry :((((

-ggchapstickdoesntwanttnftoquit:(




See how happy i am in those pictures?


:(

What is this thing you call sleep?

I think im crazy
I havent been able to sleep the last few weeks
I started to take sleeping medication to help me
But its only made it worse
I quit drinking coffee(mostly espresso shots) and energy drinks
But nothing has helped


But in the last few weeks of Quyen not sleeping
I have been visiting BMEZINE.com alot alot alot
oh yeah and flipping through my old tattoo magazines

Man its just making me want to work my ass off so that i can get a car already and then start working towards more ink and piercings

I already have an idea for the next piercing(s)
Clavicle piercings

I have spent endless hours researching it
and i think its worth it
Even if most surface piercings tend to reject after a year or so
I really want it
Ive been hearing every bodies opinion on it
And its ultimately my decision in the end to get it or not

I know its something that wont be permanent
But its the same thing as hair dye right?
People dye their hair KNOWING its not going to last forever
Or people smoke weed or do drugs KNOWING the high wont last more than a hand full of hours
So
Me getting the piercings
I KNOW its not going to be permanent
But i want it
I want it because i find certain piercings to be beautiful, interesting, fun.
So im going to think about it some more
Im going to wait until i get this car thing situated
Then give it more thought when i have the money

but yeah i just had to throw it out there since its the only thing that has been bouncing around in my mind nonstop the last few weeks

Oh yeah
I also think that appraisals at work make people work harder and want to work harder

Just throwing it out there..
Ahem Tommy
I know you read this thing...

Oh yeah
another thing..
I have been looking at some scarification pieces..
And im growing pretty fond of those too

I showed Chrissy this AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL freshly cut scarification piece
and man
I loveeeeeeeeeeeee it
I will throw up the picture whenever i find it again..if i remember

Thats it for now

-GGchapstickkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk :)

Days like these..

Ahh days like these i feel like a dip shit

I feel like a bum
I need to get a car
I need to get my shit together

And i will
Im trying to do everything i need to do, so that i can buy my own car
The car that i was suppose to get...well...shit happens
So i am going to have to work my ass off at Hot Topic and Starbucks
And save that money up to get a car

I need to focus on school

And i will
And i need to start being a better friend

Fa sho
I really need to work on that

But this sleeping pill thing is starting to settle in
Im probably going to pass out for the next 8 hours

I hope i do
I really need sleep
The last 2 weeks have been hell
I havent been able to sleep until about 6 or 7 in the morning
Then id have to get up and ready and leave the house

Ahh
I really want to sleep


Tomorrow=First day of training at starbucks
& hot topic -6-10:30
Come out and say heyyyyyyyy

-GG chapstick
I really like Motion City Soundtracks acoustic ep
Actually i love it
I cant stop listening to it

"I'm so tired, I've had enough.
If there is one thing I've learned,
You'll always get burned
But you'll never get enough."


SLEEP!
I WANT TO SLEEEEEEEEEEEEP
FOR 8 HOURS!
PLEASE!

Happy Birthday Joey Zwall. "Danger"

Dear Joey Z-wall!
I miss you dearly boo
I cant believe its been 4 months since you left us here

Im so sorry i didnt go to your funeral
I didnt find out in time because i tried to block everybody from high school out of my mind
You seriously changed my life
You helped me get out of my stupid shell that i created senior year
I miss you so much man
It hurts to wake up every morning knowing that you arent here any more

Im crying as im writing this because even though i only knew you for a year
You were one of the greatest people i knew in high school
I miss having art history with you and ryan
Seriously
You two were the only ones i even cared about there
I miss you so much
I want to see you again
I just want to be able to talk to you
You were always able to cheer me up no matter what
Every fucking day i looked forward to 6th period because i just knew you and Ryan were going to be there to make me laugh

I cant stop crying man
I wish you were here
I miss you so much
Words cant explain how much i want to see you again
Its your birthday
You're finally 18
We all know you did everything an 18 year old could do before you were 18
Duh
Who hasnt done any of that
But i just hope you are having fun wherever you are
I miss you holding my hand during art history when you knew i was having a bad day
Or when you would wear my furry mustaches in class
Remember the aluminum foil ones?!
Ahh man
Having class with you was a blast
I miss it, i miss it so much
and i would give everything to have you back here with us



God damn
You know im not a cryer
But youve got me bawling all over the place
I miss you buddy
And i love you man

I got this tattoo for you man
You made me realize how closed off i can be towards people
and you helped me open up to others
So these tears are for you man
Zoey Zwall i miss you dearly
and i want you back here on earth.

RIP Joey
And Happy mother fucking birthday
You better be partying it up man!
Loves you
And i'll never forget you boo